ive always been extremely open on my blog and this post is going to follow in the same vein.

I was talking to a friend over text about my crappy day. the subject of our bodies came up. im going to be honest sometimes i hate my body. it has not brought me much joy. from my gender to my accident and beyond. ive been open on here about my medical issues as a result of my accident. most importantly my paralyzed neurogenic bladder. ive done intermittent catheterization, ive had a suprapubic catheter and ive had to wear the dreaded diapers. the latter being the worst of it all. im constantly reminded of one of the worst days of my life. be it my residual limb or briefs. society makes fun of people who wear briefs. incontinence is often the butt of jokes. you probably didn’t know I even wore them. and you’re thinking why am I even writing about this. im on an online forum and there are so many people like me. I see posts of people who are suicidal because of the shame that society puts on them. I don’t want to live in shame. its not my fault. its not my fault I fell down that escalator. its not my fault my nerves were damaged. I needed to write that more for me than you.

thanks for reading my ramblings today. I hope you will not look at my any different.