when i was 20 i was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. i have a super long diagnosis that i won’t type out here but its basically that i have a pretty bad mood disorder. it’s pretty well controlled by a nice concoction of medication but some days it rears its ugly head. this whole quarantine thing is nothing i haven’t experienced with all my surgeries. but its different in the fact that i can’t see anyone. the introvert in me says “this is awesome!” and the small part of my brain says “maybe seeing no one for days on end *might* not be that healthy.” my mental illness has taken me to some dark places. places most people never go and that i wouldn’t wish on anyone. it also takes me to brilliant places. places that i wish everyone could experience. as of late i’m just kind of in a funk. a funk that a lot of people are experiencing. i just have to watch it so it doesn’t spiral out of control. i dont know what else to write.